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Friday, August 28, 2009
Poor blog... i dun even remember how it looks like, but i decided to pop here for awhile. Blog is basically forgotten for me, i didnt even noe ppl still really use it. since ya noe, theres so much other stuff like fb and all, that allows everyone to get connected. Fb is great and evil at the same time. Constantly u noe what ur friends r up to, but at the same time, u c certain things that u rather not see. it can get abit too much sumtimes...watever, i still like fb, i'm addicted. Used to be cuteoverload but now the first page i see, is fb. heh. Well, I've been doing my best to live my life. Just running and running, hoping to burst through all the ugly things but somehow i think i got trap. Its like I'm a caterpillar that is too eager to transform into a butterfly. In my hurry, I emerge out looking like one but is unable to fly. Something like that. I'm still working on making myself stronger... coz i realised I'm quite damaged... even with everything said and done, I am picking myself up... I didnt noe it affected me so much, but I'm gonna try to get "me" back again. Ppl tell me I m strong, its not 100% true but I will work on it. I dunno "me" anymore, or wat I wan. haha~ all I noe is I wanna earn more so I can relieve the financial burden at hm, and invest abit more in Rachel's future. At first it was, Live for the Moment. Now, I am not so sure anymore. Its like sumthing is eating me from inside all this while and I only realise it now. Its bascially killing me, this boring and down "me". Really, shld had given myself time to grieve and not suppressed it. but if i have to go back in time, i think the way i deal with it will probably be the same...haha. Most ppl shld noe by now I am seeing this other guy. He's great and all. but i wish I am not so down and boring? Bleh. I bored myself sometimes, poor him. I wonder how long he can stand me..haha. Wish me Luck ppl, I am on my journey to becoming someone stronger and better. rose |
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