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Thursday, August 25, 2005
i dun like to feel pressurize..sometimes i feel as i grow up. i runaway from reality more. i dun like to think abt problems. i shut them down. close myself from them. think thats how i been going thru alot of things. n things i can avoid, i avoid. i dun like to think abt it. say, like my job, til the v last day, i cant decide if i wanna stay on the job. thats how much i dun like to think abt things. i can be given a week, a month, n i cant decide. coz i dun like to dwell or worry over things. even if they r necessary, i tend to leave it to the last moment. its just te way i have become. When i had to send my dogs away, my mind shut the problem out. i noe sooner or later i have to send em away so i just alled the spca. send em when the person came n went to Sel's christmas party after then. it was ok. i shut it off. but certain days when i'm alone, i think abt them. i miss them. even thinking now i'm crying.. i remmeber how Mickey was so scared to enter the cage then he held on to me. but i have to push him into the cage to be taken away. there r regrets n i swear nv to keep pets again coz i dun deserve them at all. It do occur to me that the neighbours mite complain sooner or later.. tried finding homes for them but nv really did much. too lazy to do much. til the last min it was too late they had to be send away. thats me. i dun like to think abt things. n i think the more ppl pressurize me, the more likely i'll snap. i wan to be selfish n do things my own way. But who can do that? Ppl dun give me a break. Free from my job then ppl start asking me to work. i think its a gd thing that i get offers. but at the same time i feel like really taking a break. Sometimes i think i am really different in a way. It is really so hard for ppl to live life simple? to think things simple? to think more for others instead of themselves?? anways, lighter stuff. i just went on a shopping spree. on stickers. -_-" i blew 15.80 on stickers. abit too much just on stickers. bought 3 for nana. 11 for myself. haha~ its my hobby since childhood. i like stickers. and u can get really cute ones now. well. i noe i'm abit too old for collecting stickers but at least i'm not collecting sailor moon cards or anything. -_- anyways i got try to control myself coz i think Saf will scold me for wasting money. hee~ BUT, tk it as a treat i guess. not gonna waste money anymore. not much money to spend anyways. k then, gotta continue on housework. so mucht things to do.. rose |
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