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Sunday, March 13, 2005
been quite awhile since i blog properly..hmmm, got quite alot of things to ay actually. like, hmm, i will think of wat i wanna type, then i got no time to really do that. busy sleeping. -_-" anyways, this weekend basically busy with filming ba. fri n sat nite. then this morning at saf's place for the siemens thingy. well, docu going smoothly i guess. since sandy's got things n contacts. hmm, well, was abit pissed yesterday at my gp. but u noe, no things gonna go easy in life i guess. so my conclusion is, i'll just do my job n thats it. the ppl in my gp, like to tok among themselves. think james was sick or sumthing, no one bother to tell me. so screw it, i wun really be caring towards the evil ppl. thou ppl will. but at least, can say wat. watever that is, the coolest thing that pissed me off is wthe diretor sandy n editor raudha. as far as i noe, on shooting days, the directors communicates/discuss with the cameraman, this 2 is to work the closet together. but well, i got the both of em toking v long outside, n later, the editor coming to tell me what i have to do. when she will signal me to enter into fram while she shoot from the top. ok, fine with that. then the director came later n tell me another thing. i'm like..hello? then i say, y raudha say another diff thing. then sandy say, "huh, wait, wat did the 2 of u discuss?" i told her, we din discuss anything, is they discuss n tell me wat to do. then i just walk off pissed. then ask me standby at the stairs, waited for ages before someone came. james came before that, tell me exactly wat sandy say on the phone, but in a more misleading way. wat shoot from here, blah blah, but is shoot from there. then irked me coz, its exactly wat sandy say on the phone n just now wat. but muz confuse me by getting a not-so-gd-at-explaining-things-all-the-time-translator is it? i guess thats becoz sandy noes 'm pissed, so she send a represntative down or sumthing. watever. so i decided to just do my job. since everything is already discussed without me, y bother rite? i'll just be a robot n do what i need. coz after what i see, i see no point in doing more, just watever within my scope i guess. but the last part after we parted on seperate vehicles, they on jame's car, n i alone. from there i start to film alone. n i think its really fun. working that way. like just u noe, do everything u need, n everything u can, the rest, they cant blame u or anything, since at the first place, they make me feel that way. well, either way, they discuss with me or not now, i think i wun really care ba? my mind is set, i'll do wat i need. from the start, its not really easy i noe. i can see someone who sees me lower then other ppl wat. i wanna be a camerman but that person just wun bloodily write down my name. oh well, there is the allies there already so let it be ba. the ppl in dfv is mostly evil anyway. n i mean evil. n when hz n sadny can still be so friendly to herman, i see the biasness. maybe to them its not, coz he did tell them, but he joined them, so? thats it isn't it? he join sumthing that he disagree on? for wat? wat a joke. n hz ask me i hate herman so much? i was disappointed with the ppl, but i see the biasness, even worse. everyone hates michaels, i think they feel he corrupted the ppl. but ppl get corrupted is their fault too. ppl can only influence so much, the rest is up to the ppl. i give u a knife, u choose to kill ppl or throw it away. they choose to kill. so? i feel the rest are even worse, hiding behind that smiley face, only michaek show how much an ass he can be. the rest? y dun anyone see it? cant anyone detect it? n becoz we r used to it, we can still joke with them, i try to refuse that now, but ppl who tell me they r not that type that will even tok to ppl they dun like, seem to be doing it more than me. so wat is going on? the disesase is spreading. n making everyone think that they r rite in their ways. i think i am rite too, maybe i'm infected. but i still find mine logical. just me maybe. but wat i see in others, worse. "They sayrose |
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