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Thursday, February 03, 2005
today, Saf n i are officially together...hmmm. its quite sweet lah. he really..haha, makes me happy i guess. :) haha. well, i decide not to think so much already..no matter how much i think, how much i get upset or wat, its not going to change anything, i'm just gonna live for the here n now. ( no, not OD man) haha, i mean, really, i think its time to start afresh :) since i made a decision, i shld live with the consequences. the guilt, the pain, everything. but i think its time to stop already... i choose to start a new chapter with Saf so i shall do that whole heartedly, shld not be indecisive or anything. thou he say i give him 76% instead of 100%, but i think the "me" now, cant give a 100%. hmm, i sorta dun trust myself now and, i dunnoe, hmm, i dun feel that committed, as in, hmm, i dunnoe, it feels diff. together, but, dun feel there is much commitment. hmm, maybe its just me. haha. watever it is... hmmm, i think i wanna live life happy now. its time. and, hmm, saf dun deserve with me being on n off all the time. no one deserve it lah. well, today tk photo for digi. took the camera from Saf, then he company me tk pics coz he decide not to go sch, he got nothing to hand up. haha. slack awhile at his place den when orchard. realise orchard nothing to tk in the day, went east coast, tk a few pics, sandy msg, late for interview, rush to raffles mrt, look for the place, interview, go orchard tk piv again. attempt a few times, cannot, give up. slack at orchard. its ok lah. some pics is quite nice. but din get much pic also, not enuff time coz suddenly got the interview thingy. then hmmm, at nite cant really tk also, coz the camera's shutter speed is auto. so, hmm, everything is basically blurred. so after a few attempts, i decide not to waste time. its nice lah, slack. haha, these 2 days slack quite abit, tk it as a break. but gotta make up for it soon lah. cant slack too much also. well, mood just spoiled, emily needs to transfer file, tot v fast, but no, still need to tok to ken abit, then my msn keep blinking, so abit irriated. then, her dinner with her ex- friends at attchment company postpone to tmlo. N i have a dinner tmlo too. i told her just now, then realise her one postpone. tsk, muz rush hm bring naa, then rush back again. wat loh.... so ma fan. but she always taking nana to sch n back, so i gotta do my part as well. then friday, wanna go shop for clothes. with nana ard, its impossible to do that. she run ALL over the place. so, ask desrina, the irresponsible mother-as-thou-its-our-responsinle-to-tk-care-of-nana. then she msg back say she is in the hospital for asthma, later then say. what the hell. not that i dun wanna pity u, but u gotta do ur part lady, always saying things like nana is our responsiblity. she is, but not exactly. cant u do more of ur part. yah, u r pregant, diabetic, sick. i noe i sound mean, but she is that type that will keep thinking n thinking, feeling she is sick, really sick n stuff like that. that type u noe? like, hmmm, act more sick than she really is coz she keep thinkin she is sick sick sick. like, when she say she is bored at hm, wanna get part time, emily say she wants to get part time too. guess what desrina say? " then who tk care of nana?" Hullo...? nana is ur child leh. tsk tsk tsk. amazing.... she is really growing up with not enuff attention n guidance. once awhile dun count. tsk tsk. i dunnoe lah, now that she is not working, i feel she shld do more of her part/ alot of women also got problems, but they still tk gd care of their kids wat... hai, dunoe lah. i dun wanna think of nana as sumthing troublesome but i cant really help it sunmtimes.. we have to rush to sch, bring her to sch b4 that, rush home if lesson ends late to fetch her..its like... y i even have to do that? i cant like, go out as i like n all that after lessons. and weekends, i cant go out freely also..wat is that man... its unfair.... i dun get to do things freely as a young adult beocz of some mistake ppl make. tsk tsk, poor nana. rose |
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