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Sunday, April 12, 2009
Well, after my very upset n emo episode yesterday, today i feel much more normal. I shld just let it go and not be so hard on him or myself. heh~ The more we "talk", the worse it gets. So, maybe its just not meant to be. After 50 months, things has ended. Wow, its really quite long. Basically, I think life has to go on? So...yeah, like the song says" let it be..Let it be~!" I will just lead my life and not waste time dwelling on things that has happened. Better not to think about it. haha~ And I've decided not to change my blog, maybe encrypt it with password, but nah, dun think i am gonna change. Its been my venting area for so long, i'll just keep it. Heard from my aunt that my cousin's colleague had a litter of puppies and is unable to keep it. Warned by the authorities since she already has a few dogs. She asked me but my mum is not keen. (When she doesnt have to do anything) And emily probably wun mind getting one since it'll make me happy. haha~ but i swear not to have dogs anymore coz I didnt tk care of em well last time. And of coz, because of him, I was willing to not have em or u noe, give up the tot of even touching dogs if we were to get married. Soooo now, I actually get to consider... hmmmm, but having pets is so much responsibilities eh? Emily n me was actually thinking maybe it will help Rachel psychologically? Since she's having problems at sch and all. oh wellz....c how la. Can adopt one if I really want to. Been a long n tiring day. Shall go rest my 80 yr old body. rose |
0 rose(s) on your door Saturday, April 11, 2009 How did things get so bad? What is going on? Everything is so messed up... I just dun wanna remember anything now.... coz all thats running thru my head, is the hurtful thing you've said.... arg, what shld i do, where do i go? i feel so much worse than i did 5 days ago. this, maybe really is karma. ..is to crawl to a corner n cry... i feel so stupid... And it hurts so much.. How cld I have loved him so much? Wednesday, April 08, 2009 Well, today i feel v different from how i feel yesterday... Like what my friends say, after the shock and anger, comes the pain. And it is starting to sting inside. But, I am sucking it all in. I realised that yeah, i hope next time I see him we can still at least say Hi and Bye. I dun wanna have bitterness or hatred. Just, let time heal everything I guess. For now, I shall just suck it all in and hope for some peace and quiet. This will probably be my last post...at least..thats wat i feel now.. Tuesday, April 07, 2009 Remember the very nice ally mcbeal song? It started popping into my heart a few days ago, and yesterday it just kept on playing. Baby, Don't You Break My Heart SlowI like the way you wanted meEvery night for so long babyI like the way you needed me Every time things got rocky I was believing in you Am I mistaken do you say, Do you say what you mean I want our love to last forever (chorus) But Id rather you be mean than love and lie Id rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye Id rather take a blow at least then I would know But baby dont you break my heart slow I like the way youd hold me Every night for so long baby And I like the way youd say my name In the middle of the night While you were sleeping I was believing in you Was I mistaken Do you mean, mean what you say When you say our love could last forever (chorus) Well Id rather you be mean than love and lie Id rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye Id rather take a blow at least then I would know But baby dont you break my heart slow (bridge) Youe would run around and lead me on forever While I wait at home thinking that were together I wanted our love to last forever (chorus) Well Id rather you be mean than love and lie Id rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye Id rather take a blow at least then I would know But baby dont you break my heart slow (chorus) So true isnt it the lyrics? I think it applies to alot of ppl, maybe except those that covers their ears n eyes then shout, "NOOOOO!" when the truth is slapping them in the face? But its a gd song. Well, i am having alot of random tots here n there. And i was sorting thru my harddisk stuff when i saw the pictures. bleh, the last thing u wanna be is get reminded. I cant help but feel I was there to be with him thru the rough patches of his life, and when he got to where he wants, i was ditched aside to make room for other things. I noe, it sounds bitter and probably not 100% true, but i cant helped but feel like this... well, i need time since I am sorta shutting myself off for now. And alot of things i think time is needed so u can see things in a clear perspective. Thank you girls n friends who sensed something and rush to comfort me. I appreciate it. |
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