Saturday, April 30, 2005

This is my lastest favourite. hohoho, nice song.



(Check check ...this happened for real ...baby bash..yo.. frankie
j.... obession)

Its early in the morning
And my heart is really moaning
Just thinkin bout you baby
Gots me twisted into things
And i dont know how to take it
But its driving me so crazy
I dont know if its right
Im tossin turning in my bed
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And i still cant sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
Breathe ....i dont care
So helpless in my heart
I dont know what to do but to think of mi love
Baby...........

[Chorus]
Amor , no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart

Now i know you know my lady im just tryin to make this right
I dont know what to do im going out of my mind
So baby if u let me could i getchu to say maybe we could ride
together
We could do this all nite now i dont care if u got a man
Baby i wish ud understand
Cuz i kno he cant love u right, quite like i can
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And i still cant sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
Breathe ....i dont care
So helpless in my heart
I dont kno what to do but to think of mi love

[Chorus]
Amor no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart

I like the way u freak it like that
I like the way u freak it like that
I like the way u freak it like that
Its an obsession

[Baby Bash]
Hold up let me drink
Shorty got me feelin less supreme
Where my candy, where my cream
Got your boy feel less supreme
Hold up wait a minute baby you so damn independent
Loving everything your representing
Got alot of money, i love this candy
And thats whats up and i dont care what people scream
No im blessin when im stressin
My superfly beauty queen
Im gonna keep it saucy
Cuz my money know how i do, we go rendez-vous, mi corazon
belongs to you

[Chorus]
Amor ...no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong) what am i do wrong
[echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart
Amor... no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong) what am i do so
wrong [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart

Amor


Sunday, April 24, 2005

i am suppose to get my registered webhosting, blissfulcookies.com, but fraking irritating coz of the delay of the payment that domain name is taken, freaking irritated, cant they like book it for me first? damn it. shld not even get the hosting from em then. coz when i check, that name was available, now its not. n ask if blissfulCookies.net is ok. well its not reaslly ok coz i sound like a rip off if i used it. now i have to think of a new name. damn it!


Tuesday, April 19, 2005

No matter what accomplishments you make, somebody helped you.

-Althea Gibson


Friday, April 15, 2005

i feel sick..ah..last nite got headache, eat le, dozed off..then sleep til this mprning. then when i wake up, eyes r teary, feel feverish, flu n my throat..so low like that... now breathless, dizzy ah..... think too many days din rest pproperly ah, only nap 2 hrs everyday then work 24/7 on the portfolio. dying..my website also not done...chey, wanna faint le. haha.


Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Hmm, just read den's blog. well, hmm, sumthing about gers always going astray when their bf is in NS. hmm, i dunnoe. i hurt him deeply but somehow i still feel that its not really true, astray.. is it the word?

well, for her, i think i need to say sumthing..maybe alot of NS man have their gf leaving them while they are serving their NS, u can say we r yucks,cheap, watever but sumtimes, its not just that. The guys have their thinking, yah, they have no choice, they HAVE to serve NS, y cant their GF stay with em then? but the thing is, they have to think abt the ger as well. When the guys r in camp, who do the ger turn to when she is down, when she is lost, when she is lonely? friends? maybe, but of coz its not the same. and some after going steady neglect their friends and u end up alone. For me, i din wanna burden dennis any further last time, so i wun tell him much, i keep to myself. and as time pass by, the gap gets bigger coz u dun communicate as much and u realise, sumtimes u feel like u r living life alone. its not like couplehood. i mean, not say just becoz of NS but, say let be it any other situations ppl wuld not link things to it. like gers have a change of heart, coz u r in NS. there are other times this type of things happen, but ppl dun link it like that. anyway, off the point. just wan guys to also think abt the ger situation. not like it is just me or wat, but somehow, this is just some stuff i think guys shld noe. Its not about the temptation, its not about going astray, its becoz we r growing up at that point of time too, we are changing, morphing into grown ups, we strat thinking about wat we want in life, wat diff experiences/goals in life, and u start meeting alot of diff ppl compared to last time. How can anyone be sure someone is the one for u? is it so wrong just becoz u met someone else? i noe we r being bitches, but we only live once..I'm sorry to all the guys out there who have to experience all this, nothing much i can say coz i am maybe a traitor to u all as well. To dennis, i hope u dun have this type of mindset k? seems like u find gers disgusting or sumthing... u r a v nice guy, dun let wat happen scarred u for life, its not worth it.. i am sorry, but thats all i can say..just hope that u will find that someone in ur life someday. i am sure she is out there. live life to the fullest, dun let ME waste it...


Sunday, April 10, 2005

just now i felt slight earthquake..was actually quite excited n thrilled coz its the first time i experience it..but then, soon after, i realsie how serious it muz have been for the countires hit coz even from singapore i can feel it. hai~ sumatra just got hit rite? i dun folow the news but i think i saw it somewhere. i guess we r doomed already. we damaged the earth so its getting back at us. mother nature is going to get back for the pollutions n craps we had done to it. We are doomed! hehe~ dunnoe y when i think we r doomed, i am actually quite happy, but say it out feel abit sad also. hmmm, weird man..well, mother nature is gonna prove she is the most powerful, and she is the base where we all started from. blood sucker for money, gotcha! haha. do all those nonsense things. money had been ruling out life for too long, so its timew ppl notice other things ard them. like the thai government, noe abt the tsunamis keep quiet so it wun affect the tourisium rate, well, that cause so many lifes, so so many ppl get affected from it. we have to payback for wat we did to mother earth, our own kind, the other living things in this planet n everything else. its like a cycle i guess, die n live. then get corrupted again, then everything starts. hmmm... i dunnoe, shld just live my life to the fullest now i guess..


Friday, April 08, 2005

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell



Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right
now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never
had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what
destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night
crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in
a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole
it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr.
Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like
it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're
sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment

[Chorus]

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't f**k with dad (haha)



Such a cool and nice song...



really... i dunnoe how i am gonna do everything, part of me wanna just get ready for war and do my work, but part of me feels like its gonna break down. waking up in the wee hours all the time to do work is starting to tk an effect on me, when i wake up i cant do work. i just stare at the monitor, my sketchbook, wanting to come up with something but i cant, i just waste my time even thou i am not sleeping. and even if i did sleep, i still feel tired and sleepy, and its like not proper sleep with the tot of u having to wake up to do work. i'll most prob kill myself. Riteeee, over a diploma show. but monday assesment, from today i have 3 more days, do a showreel, website, buy portfolio, do art pieces and print out my artwork. time is an issue, money is another issue. i dunnoe, shld have started earlier? but i thinkw ill end up the same ba. i cant produce anything when i force myself, i cant think, no creative juice, no ideas.

and my mum, the way she treats me n emily is making us really irritated already. during mornings if she goes to work, and we say bye to her, she ALWAYS ignore. ALWAYS. ALWAYS hinting we spend money very fast, tell her we have to pay our bills, she say dun always bil bill bill. den wat? 250 for EVERYTHING is not enuff lo. transport, handphone, internet. that alone tk up how much? my course we have to buy tapes all these already din tk from her but she expect so much. i dun have money buy alot of things that i need, wanna burn dvd for ppl i also dun have money. eat also dun anyhow eat, but she dun see it, she thinks we spend money like water. i noe she got the stress of paying for household bills but she din pay these few months wat, where did all the money go? she spend more than us. its her money, her right. but y she pick on us just becoz the allowance is given by her. i noe she got tell relatives about us one lo. that time wanna cut down 50 dollars. if i can, i would. but i cant. wat u expect? i've been living on peanuts. if i dun have ppl willing to treat me n stuff, i'll most prob be like 30kg already. last ime before we have finance problems, she was not like this, but now, she picks on us, nv do housework la, this n that. if anything, say ppl say our house messy, point to us. i dun even have time to sleep, cant u see that? u work 12 hours, go out 8 plus come bk 10. i am awake before u, sleep after u sleep, cant u see that i rest even lesser than u? we are graduating, but she wun even give us a break like that. if we r such a pain, y dun u just push us to dad. last time keep asking who we wanna follow, then now u find us such a pain. hai, i feel like, she wanted to tk care of us so when she is old someone can tk care of her. not becoz she cant bear to part with us or wat. its also a trophy to show the kids wanna follow her i guess. i dunnoe, i noe she would treat me better if she can, but now she can still treat us well rite? bought new top, slippers, emily ask her new ah, she ignore. see? i have enuff stress already. i feel liek crying now, so much things to handle, but i am not able to handle anything.


Tuesday, April 05, 2005

today is a really great day for me i guess. hehe~ thou have to rush work n look for vcd. hai, finally found one, but cannot play on my dvd player..wat the hell... n stomach feeling weird coz of this chili thingy i am eating..n arguing with juan again..i dunnoe la, but her priorities like abit wrong. i can see she is growing more assertive, but i think somehwere growing wrongly lo, n she dun see it. n when i see it, i dun think she see it my way. well, everyone is different. and she say as ling as she noe what she is think can already. sounds familiar, yah, sound like me. -_-" but i realsie things dun really work that way too. and she like get angry go offline. fine with me. maybe she dun understanbd, but if eeling invite her, i thinks he shld go. and her answer is she went clubbing on friday, then she din noe sunday have, then she prefer a proper invite not so last min, she tot need the invite to go n so on, well, for me, if she is really interested or if she really care, she will find out n she will go. but wat, she din wat. so? she can spend time on clubbing, salsa, etc but maybe she shld just spend time n sit down n think abt what she needs to do. not proper invite so? a msg is not enuff? i tot that is what friends are for? maybe she dun understand the time n pain it takes us to put up a diploma show, the hours n time spend on it. only tk ur own friend 5 min to decide if he/she wants to go anot. brush it aside just like that. i dunnoe la, kinda pissed, n her showing her temper just makes me feel, "what is she trying to prove?" to prove she is not like beofre that get pushover easily? but thats not the poinbt, thats not the whole point, i m stressing the point of the friendship, the point priorities in life. maybe she dun noe stuff, but the thing is did she find out even?she can msg me or wat n ask if we r going or wat. haiyah, i also dunnoe y i get work up over this, guess i just dun get her priorities in life. said before already n since we dun think the same way, i cant really helped. but guess her thinking is really far off, hai, i dunnoe la, but i feel sad when ppl dun understand abt certain things i wanna stress out to them. i mean, i shld not force them to see my point, but i dun wanna stand there n see them doing things i feel is wrong. i dun wanna see ppl lead a life that is shallow or have nothing much to think abt. maybe juan u think i am being too much here, but i already say to u once abt what i think, i can only do so much, its ur life.


Saturday, April 02, 2005

International Fund for Animal Welfare March 31, 2005

URGENT: Tell Canada the Seal Hunt Must End

To send your seal hunt protest letter to the Canadian ambassador, simply Reply to this message and hit Send


Speak Out for Seals Now With Just One Click

Dear christina,

You probably already know that right now off the ice floes of Eastern Canada, hundreds of thousands of baby seals as young as 12 days of age are being clubbed or shot to death without mercy.

As I write this, one of nature’s greatest spectacles is being overrun by seal hunters wielding wooden bats, rifles and hakapiks — a type of spiked club. The seal pups, awkward and slow, try to flee without hope of escape.

Sealers run across the ice and club each baby seal once on the head, then flip the seal on its back to remove its pelt with a knife. Too often, the baby seal struggles against the knife and is clubbed several more times until dead.

I wanted to give you an update on the events of this year’s seal hunt, and let you know what our next steps are in stopping this cruel and senseless practice.

Why does Canada still hunt two-week-old seal pups?



The simple answer is profit. If seal pelts were not valuable; seals would not be killed. The greed of a select few has turned one of the world’s most precious natural heritages into a virtual slaughterhouse.

Last week Canada’s Department of Fisheries and Oceans announced its intention to continue reducing the entire harp seal population by up to a third ... without scientific justification. The greedy incentive to maximize profit by killing as many animals as possible, as quickly as possible, is not only cruel and disrespectful to our natural heritage, it has the dangerous potential to push harp seals down the road to extinction.

Canada’s government is counting on your silence

The brutal and irresponsible nature of the hunt is at great odds with Canada’s reputation as a civilized, progressive country.

I know that like me, you look forward to a day where the Canadian government, the fur industry and others who are fueling the killing of baby seals realize that seals are worth more than just the price of their pelts.

That’s why I want to urge you to speak out right now to tell the new Canadian Ambassador to the US Frank McKenna that the rest of the world will no longer stand for such a cruel and senseless hunt. Let’s send him a welcome message he’ll never forget!

I cannot stress enough how much your voice makes a difference. Thanks to a worldwide outcry spurred by IFAW in the 1970s, the commercial killing of whitecoat seal pups was banned in 1987. Thanks to people like you speaking out, the seal hunt was slowly dying off through the 1980s until the Canadian government began seal meat subsidies and set quotas allowing the slaughter of over a quarter million seals every year.




If only i can find a way to help them besides financially. shld ask em how i can help but too coward to do that. -_-" i wun mind if they need help n i need to go to canada to work for yrs or wat. :p thats like a dream come thru. coz for one, i can sacrifices myself n do better gd. not like i wun miss home n leaving behind love ones, but becoz i wanna make my life worth it. Human r not made into this world to just exist. live, work, play,die. dun sound like wat i thing God, or mother nature plans it. we are here as a higher intelligent for a reason, not to cause war, tragedies or kill each other. hmm, sound like i noe so much like that. well, its wat i feel lah.



i need to listen to this song more, it cheers me up in a way. yesterday was the presentation, hmm, not v smooth i guess but no regrets at all coz i noe i did my best. and the others did what they cld, maybe only james, who din come up with the packaging. but i noe last part he was trying his best to help with piecin the story tog n all that. well, at first was abit nervous, coz we gonna get scolded n the last part, i really just put watever is wriiten on the paper, no tots really going to it coz i got no time to think. started to get irritated n all that coz was just rushing. cant hear wat jamie is toking abt, it only frustrates me. frustrates me when he discuss with raud n they told him certain footages that is gonna be used but its actually bad footages. but shld not blame them coz its really hard to remmeber all this, already very impressed that they can remmeber so much, just that at that moment, was really nervous n stressed out. but well, in the end, when i see sandy so stressed, it remind me not to be. coz we did our best, so even if the lecturer is to screw us upside down, i wun have regrets or excuses, just simply not enuff time. With that much footages, i believe we can make it work, we just need more time. And still gotta reshoot some stuff thou.

its gonna be crazy, when u tot u can tk ur time to later modified it, mr seah is giving everyone another deadline. unless its damn gd, he wun change the grade. so in the end, the tot of getting it over n done is scrapped. so many things to do. but i wanna make it work, i think tis the only thing that really trigger the interest of the lectures. The ohter docu gp, the one hz n saf is in really got screwed by seah. I agree that it is a intresting topic but to amkeit visually engagin its gonna be hard. i sorta imagine it the "supersized me" way, they gotta need a lively host to bring the spirit up n inject humour into the docu. its gonna be hard, redoing it. but their gp seem to pull tog already. thats gd, it'll work, everything works when ppl put their heart to it. after being thru many things, i have this tot that, ppl, as long as they r willing too, they can be gd friend, best friends, couples. simple things that i recently really understood. even if it is not the way u wan it, din turn out well, u have no regrets coz u noe u tired. Jia You everyone!!!! i noe, they will say the one screwed is not me, so maybe i am not depressed, but, i still wanna say, it will work. Everyone there have at least won an award before, just need to put everything aside n conc.

ok, heres my horoscope. i read another one n seems like my emotions yesterday is a roller coaster...

CAPRICORN (Dec 22 - Jan 19): Conflicts run deep as the Moon returns to your sign. Your imagination is full of big ideas. Your dreams are overtaking your waking hours. Your feelings are popping out all over and you may not be as inclined as you normally are to hold them in. Remember that your emotions don't have to be explained and don't have to fit into the outer world. They simply need to be felt. Enjoy your emotional roller-coaster while it lasts.

it WAS a roller coaster, from editing to presentation, from presentation to dinner. man, i wun eloborate here.


Friday, April 01, 2005

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out
there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey, hey

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never
did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out
there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know
you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour
phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way

[Repeat 1st Chorus]



kinda tired...but decided to blog since i din do it for so long. been neglecting to note down whats happening in my life coz of the hectic workload. hardly get to sleep properly, or by rite, we shld not even sleep. so many things to do. haven done asian cine also. only been doing docu, everyday say wanna leave but always end up going home so late.

anyways, been rushing for docu, gotta discuss the structure, help in editing n so on. kinda tiring, everyday spend hours just facing the com, n after that, mite need to stay back n discuss, thou i fall asleep once. yesterday. haha. so tired after whole day of editing then discuss awhile i reallt cant tahan already, my brain already stop functioning by then. well, my gp is kinda ok i guess, thou yesterday sorta argue with james, but things r ok now, i think. coz i wun noe whther things r saide behind my back since i like, haha, expect everyone to do their job, maybe like a second michael? and not forgetting, the ppl in my class is not wat they seem to be. last time always felt i was the female version of him, but of coz, my ego is not that big. well, just hope tmlo we can finish it thou i just now then realise we dun ahve slot to do editing since mr linus cancelled it. now that it is postpone for a day, we r left with no slot. oh well, msg mr linus already, he din reply, hope we get to use it.

just now when i was walking hm, saw a poor stray dog wondering, looking for food ard the closed hawker center. so poor thing. its left side is scalded...that time i scald my hand i was in so much pain, cant imagine what it has to go thru, n obviously, its gonna get infected with the condition it has to live in. i faster walk to the supermarket n bought a can of dog food, lucky got 1.90 in my wallet or else i really will get damn depressed. cant even buy a can of dog food. -_-" den i run back to look for the dog, lucky still there. then i fed it, it so skinny, look so hungry also. finish it in no time then stray cats start appearing also. -_-" where do i get so much food? but they look better off then the dog la, so dog get to eat. then it follow me alittle, hoping fopr more food. so i call emily down to but another can. while waiting, i tried to keep it from straying off, so i stroke it alittle..hai, feel like crying now, so little i can do to help.. i get to look closely at the scald area, i dunnoe wat to do also. wanted to bring it home n clean it, find ways to heal or wat, or call up friends to borrow 200 bucks n bring it to the animal hospital. but i dun have money at all. so bloody frustratin... cant do anything coz i am so damn broke. called saf, he cant really give much comments too since there is really nothing much i can do. but i rally wished i cld bring it hm or to a vet. but i did nope of it, emily came n after giving it food, ask me to leave faster so the dog wun follow us. hai, i dunnoe, i wondering what the dog is doing now. sleeping at some cold place. then can see the scald area hurts coz it will suddenly move n faster lick it. arg!!!! not supposed to lick it!!! i only noe how to say, but none of it will help, coz in the end, i did nothing at all, and thats all that counts. thats all that matters.

shld really get a job soon. my mum wans to quit. there is no savings left. so i'll most prob, eat grass, really eat grass. n i graduating, i dunnoe the pringitng, buying n portfolio how i am going to get the money. most prob borrow from ppl or i shld just, shoot myself for not gtetting a part time. dunnoe lah, sian. now so tird but also cant sleep. gotta do asian cinema. was planning to do it today by going hm at 3, but again help edit til 9. -_-" everyone is working so hard, i shld not complain so much. hai~ cant really think of wat to write on review also. no money to buy vcd on the director i am doing also. so how? tired of borrowing money n i noe my mum is broke too. shld just cry n bang my head on the wall ba.





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